12:57 p.m. - 2007-09-29
a trip to SAD TOWN
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Ok, my husband and I had a serious discussion yesterday.
We were in our truck, driving back home and he asked if I was depressed. Yes, I was!
I'm not talking about seriously depressed, so sad there is no reason to live ....or eat....or anything like that. I mean...just a bit sad and a bit angry at myself for feeling that way because I certainly have a great life, a good husband and everything I want. I mean, sure....it would be great if my husband was retired and we could just travel all over and eat out all the time and never have to pay for anything or clean up after ourselves or....or....or....whatever else might irk me on any given day but...
I was a bit depressed. In this case, it was my own fault too -so that made me feel bad on top of already feeling bad or sad or whatever the blues-causing reason might be. And actually I already DID KNOW what was causing the blues... .
It was really my own fault. Yes, I caused this! I asked for it! and I sure got it!
Well, actually I didn't get it and that is the reason for my sad feelings.
The night before, I told my husband we needed to make a trip and he agreed. We got up early on Friday morning and drove for over an hour. We even stopped at McDonald's for an sausage egg McMuffin and a bacon McGriddle.
and this time the order was correct. No mistakes this week!. Whoo-Hoo, a real cause for celebration!
So anyhow, on with my story. We drove for an hour and had a nice discussion on various topics and then we arrived at our destination. This time, we were sure it would work out. After all, last time at the other place, we were so disappointed and couldn't believe our luck....actually our LACK of luck.
So we went inside, sure we would be lucky, happy, victorious and winners.
But inside of a few hours, the truth was told, and we were defeated!
And that is why a few minutes later, as we drove home, I was depressed....
Because I realized that I had just paid $50 and my husband had paid nearly the same just so we could lose it all
playing the slot machines....again!
We have decided not to go to the casino any more...well.....at least not for 2 or 3 more weeks!
